公主迷魂記 (一個四十歲雞蟲失戀的故事): 第四章 We're so close, but far away
莫非佢想.....
check我有冇set震機?
check我會唔會pickup電話?
check我有冇一D唔比得佢知嘅人搵我?
唔通佢係.....
懷疑我有班損友?
懷疑我有個SP或者叫開雞?
定係.....
懷疑我今日放工去咗邊?
係就大煲囉! 會唔會其實M小姐同Tammy係識得嘅呢? 兩個人做套大龍鳳嚟試我呢?
咪玩啦! 都係自己衰咸濕, 去乜鬼飲咖啡.....
諗番轉頭.....
16:45
我坐咗喺一張單人梳化, 睇住Tammy攞緊兩杯latte行過嚟.....
好一對車頭燈呀! 浪吓浪吓..... 雖然冇阿GEM果種廟細燈籠大嘅誇張, 始終Tammy高好多, 拉長咗個比例, 齋睇彈性就一撚流, 唔知楂落乜嘢feel呢! 雖然Tammy食得健康, 佢應該唔係做開運動嘅人, 起碼唔似M小姐點到定時定候去做gym, 睇怕Tammy連戶外運動都冇乜, 因為乳白色嘅心口証明一切! 佢每一次伸手攞杯latte飲, 烏低身果一刻, 好睇過紅場閱兵, 兩枚大殺力導彈加一條深深嘅大峽谷, 殺死人咩!
"老細, 有D嘢喺公司入面唔方便講..."
"明嘅..."
其實我唔明, 點明啫? 有公事要講, 入我間房咪得囉, 要出街講咁神秘, 之前仲喊晒口!
"我想請一個月no pay leave!"
"發生乜嘢事呀? 屋企有事?"
我差D想問佢係咪比人搞大咗, 當然冇講出口啦! 如果係白事咪PK?
"個人問題..."
我好衰兼用好八卦嘅眼神望住Tammy, expect佢講落去.....
Dead air咗大慨一分鐘, Tammy打破沉默, 終於開口.....
"我... 想行開吓..."
"其實我有乜嘢可以幫到妳嘅, 即管同我講!"
我以為講D義氣說話會令佢放心, 點撚知..... Tammy雙眼通紅, 怒啤咗我一眼, 然後擰轉頭! 死火, 我又講錯嘢? 發生乜嘢事呢? 有冇人可以話比我知呀!
Tammy似乎喺度喊緊..... 我伸手拍拍佢膊頭, 冇反應, 我唯有行過對面, 坐埋落佢張梳化度, 再拍拍佢, 都係冇反應, 就喺E個moment..... 我發現咗樣嘢!
我昅住Tammy個心口, 深溝夾住咗.....
.....心口個鏈咀, 好熟口面喎! 究竟我喺邊度見過嘅?
OH MY GOD!
就係同M小姐嘅一模一樣!
嘩, 會唔會咁啱呀? 好自然嘅諗法, 有伏! 一定有陰謀! 如果玩落去, 必定中招! 果一刻, 我真係驚到有D震, 兼且有D腳軟, E個鏈咀係M小姐嘅至愛! 其實咁講法都係我一廂情願, 因為, 個鏈咀唔係我送比M小姐嘅第一份禮物..... 有一晚, M小姐有night call要留係公司, 我原本都留喺公司等佢, 但係等等吓有幾個traders發現咗我仲喺公司, 結果比佢哋夾咗去飲啤酒..... 其實我就最憎果幾條友, 不過佢哋唔知, 仲以為我同每張枱都一樣, 唓! 親疏有別啊傻佬! 終於求其飲咗兩rounds就鬆人, 望吓隻錶, M小姐都差唔多搞掂, 我咪whatsapp佢知喺外面meet.....
行番入Landmark, 涼吓冷氣兼window shopping..... 望望吓, 行到一間買手飾嘅舖頭, 以前我又點會有興趣D咁嘅嘢吖? 但係今時今日又唔同囉, 心態自然要改變吓! 睇咗一陣, 眼都突埋, 一粒豆豉咁大嘅鏈咀, 竟然可以賣到咁柒貴, 女人錢真係好搵!
"Hey! 睇乜呀?"
M小姐突然出現喺我身邊, 真係比佢嚇咗一跳!
"我..."
"送禮物比我?"
M小姐又嚟咪咪眼E招, 仲要笑騎騎咁望住我! 講真, 再貴都要送, 不過我估佢想試吓我嘅反應, 多過要我送嘢!
"妳覺得邊樣妳鐘意, 就當係我哋嘅訂情禮物吖?"
"痴線!"
心係咁講啫, M小姐咪又一直望到入晒神! 我同佢一人一句, 講咗成拾幾分鐘, 結果比我知道佢鐘意D乜! 就係咁, M小姐E家帶住嘅鏈咀, 就係佢當晚指比我睇果款, 之不過, 喺M小姐自己買, 仲要係第二日lunchtime, 自己一個人走去買!
一模一樣嘅鏈咀!
望住非常吸引嘅乳溝, 我忍痛make咗個decision, 決定要同Tammy講, 我有個appointment, 要走嗱! 仲叫佢有事就搵我, 唔好胡思亂想..... Tammy只係點吓頭, 冇出過一句聲, 眼紅紅咁望住我走.....
Goodbye kiss
旺角.....
離開咗甜品店, M小姐四周圍係咁望, 我問佢做乜, 佢冇出聲, 反而拖住我隻手行, 一路望住地下, 又搞邊科呀大小姐?
突然M小姐好似發現新大陸咁!
"咦, E條街....."
"哦, 黑布街嘛!"
"Yes, 入面有間coffee shop, 我朋友話OK, 不如下次我哋嚟試吓囉....."
"好! 但係, 有樣嘢今晚我想試先!"
M小姐知我講乜, 一直係咁望住我..... 我E家唔做嘢等幾時呀! 所以, 我另一隻手己經伸到佢條小腰, 好唔客氣咁拉M小姐埋身.....
由於M小姐腳踏高踭鞋, 基本上大家都咁高咁大, 攬埋一齊, 佢一埃喺我度, 就己經面碰面咀對咀! 就係E個critical moment, 我諗緊應該點咀佢好? 輕輕哋碰吓咀唇, 定係進取D一嘢車埋去好呢? 就喺十五十六之間..... M小姐慢慢合上雙眼, 我已經感覺到佢嘅胸部緊貼住我個心口, 即使係一個飛機場.....
眼前一黑, 感覺溫中帶柔!
馬步一浮, 感覺又軟又硬!
濕潤嘅咀唇, 微微張開, 期待我嘅舌頭.....
我當然把握E個世紀機會, 好斯文咁車過去!
結果.....
長達一分十二秒嘅初吻, 就喺黑布街上演! 但係我發夢都估唔到, 我同佢嘅第一次, 竟然會係一個濕吻!
從來, 高手過招, 一出便知有沒有!
M小姐毫不猶豫, 立即有來有往! 就係咁車來車去, 脷疊脷, 糾纏不清!
我肯定M小姐係老手!!!
初吻之後嘅第一眼, 對方永遠係最迷人, 加上之前嘅係一個濕吻, M小姐更加迷上加迷!
對望, 妳眼望我眼.....
M小姐忽然做咗個好奇怪嘅表情, 好似想話比我知, 你渴望嘅嘢得到啦! 冇錯, 我係好撚想咀佢好耐, 但我志不在此.....
一個極浪漫嘅時刻, 可惜, M小姐講咗一句我好憎嘅說話!
"今晚唔好環遊世界嗱, 各自返屋企啦!"
"吓..."
"下次先!"
"下次...?"
又乜嘢事先! 有冇搞撚錯呀? 橫睇掂睇, 我都唔似傻仔, 妳分明玩我啫? 定係怕我禽鳩妳呀?
M小姐輕輕力推開我, 之後吸咗一口氣, 跟住一直望住地下..... 我仲瞄到M小姐一個小動作, 佢又開始咬唇..... Anyway, 我個人就係衰心軟, 成日都係求求其其, 算啦, 得些好意須回手!
吻別係最令人傷感, 最攞命嘅, 仲要係一個初吻! 更討厭嘅事仲有.....
一架唔應該出現嘅的士駛近.....
默默無言咁目送M小姐! 真係, 我同佢真係講唔出嘢, 可能大家個心都跳得太利害, 平伏唔都, 我只係做個口型, 講句bye..... 而M小姐, 一直面紅紅咁微笑.....
黑布街口, 隻影形單, 有點意難平.....
突然, 我閃咗個idea!
擰轉身, 我立即伸手截咗架的士, 望一望司機, 有運! 司機哥哥都算靚仔醒目, 立即同佢講我要追過前面架的士, 一定要爬佢頭! 大家可能問, 出到大路, 有咁撚多的士, 又點知邊架打邊架呢? 嗱, 溝女我雖然唔在行, 但有樣嘢我會做到足, 每次同女性食完晚飯, 送佢搭的士嘅時候, 我都會記低車牌號碼, 有乜東瓜豆腐, 真係唔知去邊度還番個女比人! 我初初date阿M小姐, 都有whatsapp個車牌比佢, 仲知道M小姐好冧我E一招, 大家不妨試吓!
司機哥哥果然係靚仔醒目兼有形, 仲係話頭醒尾果隻, 未上火車站之前, 己經確定爬咗頭, 之後仲好有技巧咁衝咗兩支燈! 其實, 我除咗報比M小姐知, 佢部的士車牌之外, 一直都同佢WhatsApp, 清楚知道佢嘅位置!
好嘢, 今次真係冇得輸!
話咁快就到咗M小姐樓下, 我求其閃咗入去間7仔..... 眼尾瞄到一排排0.03..... 唉, 算把啦, 下次一定會買!
都覺得差唔多夠鐘, 再閃番出去..... 遠遠見到有架的士到! 係嗱, 就係E個車牌嗱! 為免衰收尾, 我特登熄埋部電話, 等到架的士停埋嚟, 我就一支箭咁標埋去!
一手就打開車門!
霎時間, M小姐同的士司機都比我嚇呆咗, 佢哋仲以為恐怖分子騎劫紅的!
我望實M小姐, 佢由驚訝變做大笑, 仲手指指我, 不過就笑到出唔到聲啫! 反而的士司機就講咗句.....
"哈哈, 大團圓結局囉!"
M小姐面都紅晒咁落車, 我當然笑笑口咁一手拖住佢, 反而M小姐一出嚟就已經攬實我! 仲喺我耳邊講.....
"You sneaky..."
"Yes, I'm... You don't like?"
佢勢估唔到我會出E招, 完全比我技術性擊倒!
M小姐一手就拖我行番入去7仔側邊, 一個陰暗嘅角落, 跟住就攬到我實一實, 而且仲含情脈脈咁望Q住我! 仲等? 即刻車埋去啦! 今次, M小姐嘅表現比頭先更加熱情, 一手雖然揸住個手袋, 另一隻手不停係咁查我個牌, 喺咁模我! 同我認識嘅M小姐簡直就係兩個人, 我估佢有少少high咗嘅感覺!
打鐵就趁熱!
"今晚上唔上得去呀!"
M小姐突然謊失失咁, 推一推我, 仲好似好驚咁講.....
"唔好迫我啦..."
我只係一直望住佢, 冇出過聲.....
"I... I am not ready...."
我都係一直望住佢, 雙手輕輕咁喺佢嘅bar帶附近四圍游!
"Pls... pls... don't..."
我依然一直望住佢, 我刻意將我嘅下體緊貼住佢, 一凸一凹, perfect match! M小姐比我E一吓舉動, 嚇咗一嚇, 呻吟咗一聲!
"Oh... no... not tonight..."
我知道, M小姐今晚一定唔會比我入屋, 點都好啦, 玩夠就好收手, 反正我feel到M小姐應該係好想同我..... 無論佢背後有乜原因..... 今晚no show就係鐵一般嘅事實! 當係做番個君子, 來日方長, 下次連本帶利砌通宵!
"Ok, as long as you happy!"
M小姐似乎鬆咗一口氣, 再次展露佢迷人咪咪眼笑容! 望住佢, 真係冇嘢好講, 唯有抽吓水當攞住多少利息, 搜身程序再繼續, 雙手不停咁由bar帶摸到小腰, 再落patpat! 正如所料, M小姐係高瘦平, 有做運動所以零脂肪, 但係真係唔多好摸, 算把啦, 佢可能亦都覺得我唔夠大隻啫!
M小姐情不自禁又再同我車過!
指尖喺M小姐股溝不停遊走, 我摸得兩摸, 感覺有D嘢! 究竟喺乜呢? OMG! 係..... 護翼! M巾呀, shit! 我家陣明白晒, 如果M小姐唔係姨媽到,歷史絕對喺今晚改寫! 起碼有一場世紀大戰爆發!
唉, 命係整定! 食幾多著幾多, 都係整定! 唯有安慰自己, M小姐比我食硬嘅, 早或遲冇乜分別.....
始終有D唔甘心.....
打完個車輪, 大家都要回吓氣..... M小姐當然知道我發現咗乜啦! 攬住我喺耳邊細細聲講.....
"You naught boy!"
"Well, what a pity!"
唔講由是可, 一講完, 我同M小姐竟然有種無言以對嘅感覺, 感覺得有D可悲, 傷感.... 兩個都已經唔係後生嘅人, 真係無謂喺條街出面拉拉扯址, M小姐好理智咁推開我, 整一整頭髮..... 我明嘅..... 話晒喺佢屋企樓下, 要搞都應該上樓啦! 而且, 大家都好無奈!
靜默又無奈嘅Goodbye.....
的士駛入紅隧嘅一刻, 我合上眼.....
我並唔係回味今晚嘅goodbye kiss.....
我開始思索今日發生嘅每一件事.....
我要從新估計M小姐E一個人.....
反覆反覆再反覆
Goodbye Kiss告一段落, M小姐又嚟玩緊急殺車! 真係捉摸唔到E個外表冷漠, 突發性moody嘅中女, 內心究竟想點? 吊高嚟賣? 諗唔通.....
之後幾日冇WhatsApp, 冇電話.....
有whatsapp都係一句起兩句止.....
公司見面, hi咗一聲就算.....
冇喺公司online chat, 唔想同我食lunch.....
當然冇晚飯直落啦!
總之就對我好冷淡, 究竟係佢諗唔通, 定係我果晚嚇親佢呢?
就係咁, 過咗成個禮拜.....
今朝六點鐘, 一早就棟咗喺公司, 事關收到風話日本果邊有料到, 所以要睇住個場, 兼且今日有兩條新仔開咪講嘢, 上頭話要磅住佢哋, 費事比佢哋發噏風, 講錯嘢! 唉, 仲要同佢哋預先對稿添, 想當年, 我吔又有乜人幫呀? 咪又係自己執生..... E班80後真係幸福.....
終於無驚無險, 直落九點! 各位大老板, 細薯仔, 陸續返到公司..... 除咗我果位Irene, 佢話個女隻腳趾公腫咗, 要同佢睇完醫生至返喎..... 至於Tammy, 佢今日開始放no pay leave..... 唉.....
期望嘅人終於出現online chat - M小姐
M小姐 [9:25 AM]:
u busy today?
[9:25 AM]:
y?
M小姐 [9:25 AM]:
sorry, guess u r... noted "busy"
哦, 係喎, 我嘅status仲係set咗busy, 因為日本單嘢, 有人尋日mark咗我個calendar由06:00去到10:00.....
[9:26 AM]:
ah, yes, set for japan...
M小姐 [9:26 AM]:
ok
[9:26 AM]:
whats up?
M小姐 [9:30 AM]:
thinking of having an early lunch as i need to catch the 1 pm shuttle to Kowloon
[9:30 AM]:
too bad
M小姐 [9:30 AM]:
nvr mind that u r busy..next time then
喂喂喂, 阿姐, 我係話妳要過海做嘢啫.....
我唔係話我無時間同妳lunch喎.....
立即補飛先!
[9:30 AM]:
only half hr meeting wor
starting now
M小姐 [9:31 AM]:
oic
let me know later la
[9:32 AM]:
k
第一個meeting搞掂!
[10:01 AM]:
hi
just finish the 1st call...
[10:32 AM]:
2nd call now... i should be free after 11:00
M小姐 [10:33 AM]:
sorry, i am veyr busy now
give me min
M小姐 [10:50 AM]:
sorry
not so busy now
咪玩啦, 輪到妳忙?
[10:51 AM]:
no sorry... still on call, but i have finish my part yet...
M小姐 [10:51 AM]:
later
[11:01 AM]:
hi, all done! I am free now
M小姐 [11:17 AM]:
omg... maddness this morning
仲要玩? 算啦, 比妳玩落去..... 我忍妳!
原本我都想走過去睇吓M小姐, 究竟係真忙定假忙, 但係咁做好衰啫, 所以放棄..... 之不過, 我起身遠遠瞄過佢, 佢帶住headset, 又好似.....
[11:17 AM]:
still busy??
unexpected work?
M小姐 [11:17 AM]:
yea
sorry, i might not be able to take an early lunch
我小! 妳真係玩嘢啫!
[11:18 AM]:
never mind... work important...
M小姐 [11:19 AM]:
OMG
still going on
[11:20 AM]:
no worry, india bugging me now...
M小姐 [11:23 AM]:
really?
will you be joining me for lunch then?
but i might have a late lunch
[11:24 AM]:
tell me what is your lunch schedule
M小姐 [11:24 AM]:
then u decide whether to join me :D?
老實講, 我真係有D肚餓㗎! 唉, 算啦.....
[11:25 AM]:
yep, anytime, just ping me
M小姐 [11:25 AM]:
ok
u sure? might be late wor
if u want to go ahead, pls do. dont wait for me
[11:26 AM]:
even 3 is ok
M小姐 [11:26 AM]:
lol
ok....
[11:26 AM]:
ok, just ping me...
M小姐 [11:27 AM]:
sure
女人真係善變, 係鐵一般嘅事實! 頭尾唔夠兩粒鐘, 竟然由early lunch 搞到late lunch, 佢究竟想點㗎? 咪比我估中吖, 跟本佢就想bar定我先, 咁咪可以幾時食lunch都得囉! 超級儍妹, 出句聲我日日夜夜同妳一齊都得啦, 做乜要打mind game呢?
M小姐 [12:15 PM]:
i have a night call today (arghhh)
[12:15 PM]:
another unexpected meeting?
when is the call?
M小姐 [12:17 PM]:
8:30
1 hour
[12:17 PM]:
Jesus...
M小姐 [12:17 PM]:
and a 7am on next morning
impossible scheduel
[12:19 PM]:
you are the only one... suffer?
M小姐 [12:19 PM]:
only me on tonight's call
tomorrow, dont know
[12:20 PM]:
such calls are regular in every week, or bi-week?
M小姐 [12:21 PM]:
i have so many of them that i dont track which are regular and which aren't
no longer makes any difference to me
[12:22 PM]:
it is not really fair for you...
M小姐 [12:24 PM]:
that's what i have been saying
i really need another staff
[12:25 PM]:
have you speak to him?
榮少真係離譜, 咁樣對D細嘅, 搞到我吖嘛! 睇怕佢同M小姐D關係應該唔慌好.....
M小姐 [12:26 PM]:
knowing me, do you think i will or will not?
[12:27 PM]:
well well well, u should get another job...
M小姐 [12:27 PM]:
i spoke to him of course
no head count wor
that's what i have been saying... i need to look for another job
[12:28 PM]:
i wonder if you quit, what will they do...
M小姐 [12:28 PM]:
easy.
look for another person lor
[12:29 PM]:
that simple???
M小姐 [12:29 PM]:
of course
[12:31 PM]:
it is not fair, you works like that not just a few months, but year to years...
M小姐 [12:32 PM]:
told u, no one cares
[12:32 PM]:
I care
M小姐 [12:32 PM]:
lol
[12:32 PM]:
lol
M小姐 [12:32 PM]:
u so sweety
哈哈哈!!! 妳e個reply 已經輸咗啦!
[12:34 PM]:
is it raining now?
M小姐 [12:36 PM]:
it was
not sure about now
[12:36 PM]:
hope no rain later...
M小姐 [12:36 PM]:
hope not
when to leave for lunch?
1:30?
[12:37 PM]:
up to you
[12:41 PM]:
btw, what you like?
M小姐 [12:41 PM]:
something not fattening?
[12:42 PM]:
very good
M小姐 [12:43 PM]:
i want a sandwich
u ok with sandwiches?
[12:45 PM]:
of course
M小姐 [12:46 PM]:
giusto, ok?
[12:46 PM]:
y not
M小姐 [12:46 PM]:
within 1 hour wor
or somewhere in LKF
[12:47 PM]:
can u go now? i mean at 1.
M小姐 [12:48 PM]:
i am ok
[12:48 PM]:
meet at lobby or downstair?
M小姐 [12:49 PM]:
my desk
i will ping u when i ready
[12:49 PM]:
ok
M小姐 [1:06 PM]:
sorry a bit bit
late
u ok now?
[1:06 PM]:
ok
M小姐 [1:06 PM]:
ok cya
結果, M小姐同我去咗食拉面.....
M小姐 [2:58 PM]:
feel a bit sick
[2:58 PM]:
y
M小姐 [2:58 PM]:
may be i ate too fast
or the food too greasy
[2:59 PM]:
sorry, i should not suggest to go there
M小姐 [2:59 PM]:
u didnt, i did
happens to me all the time
[3:02 PM]:
u need any medicine?
M小姐 [3:02 PM]:
dont think so
[3:02 PM]:
i can go out
you sure?
M小姐 [3:04 PM]:
no la
but thanks
[3:05 PM]:
voice out, if you need me, ok?
M小姐 [3:06 PM]:
lol
to do what?
嗱, 係妳諗多咗喳!
[3:08 PM]:
anything, if you like... lol
M小姐 [3:08 PM]:
i dont think u could
[3:09 PM]:
don't underestimate yourself
佢冇再reply..... 唔通我E句嚇親佢?
[6:08 PM]:
hey, busy?
M小姐 [6:10 PM]:
omg!!!
[6:10 PM]:
ok, understand... need to ...
eat something, i can buy for you...
M小姐 [6:10 PM]:
i bought my toast
cos i had a call
just finished
omg...
thot u were going wait for me tim :)
Me [6:11 PM]:
yes
wait until when...
?
M小姐 [6:11 PM]:
after the call
[6:11 PM]:
when finish?
M小姐 [6:11 PM]:
9:30 wor...
:) just kidding
[6:12 PM]:
u almost killing me....
so when?
M小姐 [6:13 PM]:
9:30
喂喂喂, 咁夜先至開完會, 妳係咪番屋企先?
[6:14 PM]:
hey, really confuse, u go home for the call or stay here?
M小姐 [6:14 PM]:
stay here
吓, 我咪有排等!
[6:14 PM]:
can't wait for u until the call finish wor...
M [6:15 PM]:
i know
i said just kidding
and i didnt underestimate myself
佢果然有將我講果句擺喺心!
[6:15 PM]:
lol
[6:20 PM]:
then i go to record shop, may be i ping u when i return home la...
M小姐 [6:20 PM]:
y u ping me when you return home?
各位, 當時我真係唔明佢E句說話, 背後係有意思, 其實佢係開始嬲緊我! 但係我睇唔明, 死蠢, 佢講東我就答咗去西.....
[6:21 PM]:
y not? or u want Whatapp, or you don't want me bugging u??
M小姐 [6:21 PM]:
just trying to understand y u need to ping me when u r home
^o)
u have something to ask me?
u can ask me now
因為之前唔明大小姐嘅意思, 所以我當時咁諗:
唓, 如果真係有重要嘢講, 我都唔會用whatsapp啦, 面對面咪仲好啦!
[6:22 PM]:
nothing special wor...
anything u need to do now?
M小姐 [6:25 PM]:
additional resources
i had a 1 hour lunch break and a 15 mins tea break
so busy the whole day
until 9:30 tonight
[6:26 PM]:
you may have another break now...
M小姐 [6:27 PM]:
i dont think i could
[6:27 PM]:
you can't keep working and working... just like a machine...
M小姐 [6:27 PM]:
i just came back from a break around 5
[6:30 PM]:
ha ha
[6:50 PM]:
hey, I off la... see u tomorrow!
M小姐 [6:52 PM]:
bye
[6:52 PM]:
don't work too hard, bye!
M小姐 [6:54 PM]:
u going to ping me later?
大家請再留意! M小姐最後一句係我lock咗機之後send比我.....
20:20
我一手擰住HMV袋CD, 一手揸住包麥記.....
返到屋企, 入房開機睇吓尋晚BT嘅status..... 唉, 近排D種子好Q慢, 不過都有兩套正嘢download 晒!
坐低一邊快速搜畫, 一邊食包包.....
順手望望部blackberry..... 咦, 英國果邊send咗張spreadsheet過嚟, 仲話urgent要revise! 乜料呀? 結果, 我都係唔多放心, remote返公司, 睇吓入面係乜料先....
就係咁..... 我見到D我應該兩個鐘頭前, 應該要見嘅message!
M小姐 [6:53 PM]:
u going to ping me later?
仆街!
嘩, 好彩冇除衫啫! 極速落樓兼飛的!
一上車, 我就立即whatsapp佢.....
"Miss u so much"
但係M小姐一直冇reply..... 有bad feeling.....
Anyway, 好彩遇著個賽車手! 佢手車真係冇得頂! 心煩意亂嘅時候, 又有whatsapp到! 不過, 係損友林公子, 唔理!
21:25
的士大哥差不多用漂移嘅方法, 片入去停車場果一刻, 我用whatsapp再發多一條message!
"can't wait tmr!"
煞車聲大到驚動office嘅保安! 好彩平時我同building嘅保安有兩句, 識晒! 我衝入lobby嘅時候, 佢哋甚至幫我hold住架lift!
Lift入面, 我再望望手機, M小姐都仲未回WhatsApp.....
隨著Lift門打開, 即刻見到食蕉哥哥同埋M小姐! 佢企咗喺reception側邊, 好嚴肅咁啤住我! 跟住佢就好有型咁行出嚟.....
"乜你唔係去HMV買CD咩? 你件jacket呢?"
我苦笑咗一聲, 正想拖住M小姐, 但係比佢閃咗入lift先!
"我掛住妳嘛, 咪乜都唔記得擰囉!"
M小姐冇理我, 不過, 佢果副毫不在乎嘅表情, 比任何冷冰冰嘅樣更加冷漠!
"其實, 我去完銅鑼灣就即刻返屋企, 跟住remote番公司, 先至見到妳最後個message....."
M小姐啤咗我一眼! 跟住, 佢喺手袋度攞咗包紙巾, 抽咗一張出嚟..... 我仲以為佢想打噴嚏添..... 點知, 原來係.....
"你咀角有ketchup! 成日食M記無益㗎....."
"咁..... 妳煮比我食囉!"
"I told you!"
"What?"
"I don't cook....."
"O, nevermind....."
正想乘勢攬佢嘅時候, M小姐問咗我一個好奇怪嘅問題.....
"Have you seen anyone else?"
"Where?"
"Downstair....."
"Nope..... who you'd expect?"
"No, nothing....."
怪! 問得奇怪!
30分鐘後, 我同M小姐身在isquare..... 草草醫飽個肚, M小姐就話頂唔順要番歸訓覺, 佢仲話叫我唔駛送! 嗱, 如果我真係聽佢講, 好有可能又中伏, 咁就大檸樂囉! 其實都唔係時間早晚嘅問題, 加上M小姐唔知點解對我有D忽冷忽熱, 我點都要堅持送佢番屋企嘅..... 當然, 我完全冇諗過會有下文啦, 等咗佢足足成日, 臨尾抽番多少水都好應該啩! 好似好仆街呵? 其實我嘅目的係想check吓M小姐, 係咪對我冷淡啫, 甚至乎佢係咪想retreat.....
結果, M小姐都係比我送佢返屋企..... 平平淡淡.....
又過咗一個禮拜, 估唔到嘅係..... M小姐嘅態度..... 又開始番嚟, 好似回復番正常..... 佢諗通咗?
Anyway, 飯照食, 街照去, whatsapp照玩.....
今日, 剛剛同M小姐食完lunch番公司.....
搭緊lift.....
突然醒起有個會要開! Say個bye之後, 急急腳入房!
E個係一個video conference, 日本做host, 我E種二打六, 只不過係旁聽啫, 唔須要做準備.....
今次個call係compliance個大秘Kitty姐幫手book, E間細嘅金魚房對正個pantry, 我就唔多鐘意E間房嗱, 乜柒都比出面睇撚晒!
入到去, 冇畫面嘅? 不過Ben sir已經坐咗係度, 佢見我氣沖沖, 就話.....
"喂, 唔駛咁急喎, 慢慢坐低先..... 日本果邊嘅VC出咗問題, 等吓啦!"
"哦! 乜淨係得我同你, 法國佬先至係主角喎!"
"條友例遲㗎啦! 我call過入炒房, D人話佢好似鬧緊人喎!"
"哦....."
反正等緊, 又冇嘢好做, 兩丁友就開始吹水.....
由於我一直背住房門坐, 睇唔到出面, 吹吹吓, Ben sir 牛咁眼昅住出面.....
"咦, 三件高妹沖嘢飲喎!"
我轉身一望, oh, 原來係M小姐同另外兩條女喺pantry..... 日本妹, 同M小姐同team果個, K小姐就睇客嘅portfolio, 外國回流果隻.....
"唓, 你矮啫! 其實日本妹先至叫做高, 你睇清楚啦! 佢著平底鞋㗎! M小姐果對高踭鞋都成三吋啦, 先至同日本妹平頭!" 我望住Ben sir, 好撚權威咁講.....
佢條死仔真係即刻起身望!
"係喎, 你唔講我都唔覺, 乜你咁有研究嘅? 你唔係gay嘅咩?"
"Gay你老味!"
"Ok, OK, 大家咁熟, 係咪唔講得笑先?"
E個時候, 三條女應該發覺我同Ben sir講緊佢哋..... 突然, M小姐同我打咗個眼色, 而我亦都好自然咁打番招呼.....
Ben sir扮咗一聲咳!
我回頭望佢.....
"衰仔, 搞掂咗囉呵? 話時話, 乜你唔係講過唔搞公司D女嘅咩?"
我真係無言以對!
"出面已經好多人講你哋喇....."
我冇回應Ben sir, 甚至轉身望番飲緊水嘅M小姐!
"係friend嘅先至同你講, 真係要諗清諗楚呀!"
Ben sir雖然同我同期, 不過..... 不論外形語氣同心態, 都好似我嘅長輩! 由其係佢講出E句.....
E個時候, 法國佬終於到, 跟住, 日本好快有番畫面過嚟! 我哋即刻坐番好, 開始VC.....
一個鐘之後.....
Ben sir同我哋講多幾句公事就走, 而我就同法國佬行番入炒房繼續吹水.....
Ben sir之前講嘅嘢我冇放喺心度, at least果個moment, 因為我覺得做得出又怕乜嘢認呢? 況且我當時嘅心境仍然 - 樂在其中!
We are so close, but...
雖然我住港島, M小姐住九龍, 兩點之間嘅距離, 拉直線嚟計, 唔算得好遠, 但對於一般情侶嚟講, 就算住喺樓上樓下都覺分隔得太遠..... 老實講, 香港交通算方便, 況且, 我同M小姐已經比好多人好好多嗱!
之但係, 人與人之間嘅距離唔係咁計, 我同M小姐喺有d畸形, 我覺得大家嘅關係, 好似基建喺公司嘅層面上! 起碼一個星期見五日, 見佢多過見阿媽, 同佢食飯多過老豆, 未返公司已經喺地鐵whatsapp, 一返埋位就轉公司嘅online chat..... 我開始覺得好有問題..... 好似..... 例行公事咁囉! 喺e段時間, 我無時無刻都好似report緊我個status (而佢又冇咁做喎)! 另外, 同M小姐一齊之後, 唔講叫雞E瓣, 真係好似拋開晒我所有嘅良朋好友, 生活圈好似得番佢一個咁!
鬼頭放大假!
跟咗佢幾年, 都知道老細一放假就唔會理公司D嘢, 所有手機同blackberry熄晒, 仲唔會check e貓! 鬼頭係真正享受假期嘅人, 真正block leave!
其實, 老細放假, 有好有唔好啦, 一係做撚死, 一係就嘆撚死! 星期一下晝飛, 我就一直嘆到星期三! 好可惜, M小姐忙緊個大project, 做到日月無光, 都成幾日冇見面, 十足滅絕師太閉關修煉!
Hea到星期三, 仲想話同M小姐求其食個quick lunch, 都比佢拒絕! 唯有同兩個trader食啦..... 食飽飽就各自歸位..... 點知一坐低, 就做到仆街冇停手! 唔單止我, 出面果兩件都培我一齊忙.....
第二日, 仲更加仆街, 忙撚到九彩! 一早同M小姐講好今日大家咪見面, 太忙嗱! 佢只係喺whatsapp簡單一個字 "sigh", 我覺得佢嘅意思係估唔到大家會同時咁忙姐..... 點知道, 原來我係諗錯咗.....
08:00
七點鐘個conference仲未完, 班日本sales死唔斷尾, 我正喺度同Sydney個Sales小緊班㗎仔, 感覺有個人入嚟我間房!
Tammy!
佢終於放完no pay leave!
"老細! 早晨!"
Damn, 點解我會覺得Tammy講到好似 "老細! 幾多位呀!"
我眼定定望住佢.....
放完假冇見一排, Tammy更加醒胃精神! 雖則佢今日嘅裝扮冇上次咁惹火, 但係個look都好撚sexy, 黑絲襯到對腳好瘦長, hmm..... 咁當然同M小姐冇得揮啦! 四吋高踭鞋冇走雞, make up又好鬼sharp, 完全脫胎換骨! 加上留長咗頭髮, 好過佢以前TB款好撚多啦, 起碼更加似一個溝死仔嘅黃君磬!
"Hi, welcome back! 入嚟坐!"
順手示意佢閂門.....
"唔同晒喎! Fully charged?"
Tammy斬斬眼, E起鵬牙, cute到冇人有! 你哋話, 望住一個又cute又sexy嘅黃君磬, 真係幾頭暈!
"Sorry呀老細, 之前搞到你!"
"傻啦, 做得妳老細, 預咗啦!"
Tammy聽完, 竟然立即收起笑容, 面色仲沉咗添..... 死! 乜又好似M小姐咁, 突發性精神分裂?我估我又係講錯嘢!
"A, 唔再講呢D..... 今日化咗個靚妝, 好醒神喎!"
Tammy開始有番D笑容, 不過並無講嘢, 淨係眼甘甘咁望住我! 喂, 妳又做乜呀? 同一時間, handfree傳出個conferece call完咗! 既然係咁, 不如.....
"呀, 時間尚早, 不如我哋出去食個快吖?"
我E句一講出口, Tammy即刻陰陰咀笑!
"老細, 你唔似想食快餐嘅人喎!"
Oh, 有料! Tammy果然變咗, 識得同我玩食豆腐喎! Anyway, 我唔會繼續同佢玩落去, 一於扮唔明! 呀姐, E度係公司, 妳係我下屬, 最重要係我己經有咗M小姐嘛! 咪再搞咁多嘢!
食個快嘅時候, 我開始brief番Tammy放假發生過乜, E家點解咁忙, 另外果兩丁友係幾咁幫唔到手等等..... Tammy有度好, 就係唔會落井下石, 佢靜靜聽, 唔明就問果種人..... 成個早餐, 全程講公事嘅同時, 我真係發現好多麻甩佬牛咁眼昅實Tammy, E個場真係好多狗公!
手機響咗一聲!
我估到係M小姐! 果然不出所料, 九點鐘, M小姐慣性whatsapp我, 佢搭緊MTR鐘意say吓hi, chitchat吓, 返到公司大慨930, 就轉用公司嘅online chat.....
我趁住Tammy仲未食完佢件sandwich, 快快手whatsapp番M小姐, 當然, 我有mention我同緊Tammy食早餐啦.....
真係六合彩又唔見我中! 以為食完個快, 就嗱嗱聲同Tammy返上去, 一轉入lobby, 萬七咁多人等lift, 就係輪到我同Tammy入到lift嘅時候, M小姐沖咗入緊!
歷史性嘅一刻!
我從來未試過M小姐同Tammy, 三個人搭同一部lift, 而且仲要迫到沙甸魚咁! 我要形容一吓E家個情況, 大家都知全院滿座, 我同Tammy其實都係臨尾迫入去, 叫做轉到身果隻! 我企到面向lift口咁滯, 而Tammy就緊貼我嘅左後方, 緊貼嘅意思係, 佢嘅手背其實已經貼住我個patpat, 佢個胸篤到我背脊! 嗱, M小姐入嚟嘅動作其實好快, 真係好撚快! 佢delta T之內做咗三個反應:
1. 沖到埋lift口, 見到多人到反艇, DUP break唔入!
2. 瞄到我喺度, 決定入嚟!
3. 再瞄到Tammy係我後面, 面色轉咗三次 - 歡融, 黑面, 若無其事
所有嘢, 我看在眼中! 好彩, 我一早報定案, 問心無愧!
M小姐當然好自然咁靠喺我身邊, 簡直就好似我同佢出街攬到實咁, 但係E度係公司嘅電梯, 係唔係有D過火呢? 唯一解釋就係佢又要宣示主權! 有時, M小姐嘅行為真係的確幾令人費解.....
出咗lift, 兩個女人並無打招呼, E一點我有D奇怪! 首先, M小姐唔打招呼係正常, 佢不嬲都好似睇唔起我下面果三個, 自從我同M小姐一齊, 佢都經常性過嚟我department, 自出自入, 我未見過佢主動跟佢哋三個say hi, 都咪話同佢哋傾偈啦!
但係Tammy嘅舉動就有D意外! 以前我都覺佢會主動同M小姐打招呼, 起碼禮貌上又或者睇我嘅份上..... 但係今日有D怪, I have smell something happen.....
差唔多大家行到去M小姐個位嘅時候, M小姐突然開口問我.....
"Busy?"
"Yup!"
"Really?"
"Yes!"
"Well, catch u later"
"Sure..."
好在Tammy放完假, 今日有多個人幫手, 佢真係自動波, 兩隻嘢都仲未返到, 佢已經開始pickup所有嘅outstanding.....
12:15
真係忙到冇朋友, 話咁快又到lunchtime, 實情係炒房個法國佬今日出奇咁得閒, 問我有冇興趣join佢張枱飲茶! 唓, 有時間都搵M小姐啦! 順手我問M小姐有冇興趣一齊lunch, 佢都仲係話忙, 想full gear搞掂手頭上D嘢.....
結果, 我好少有咁留咗喺公司..... 繼續同我果三隻嘢搏殺! 差唔多成點鐘, Jeff同Irene兩隻嘢己經頂唔順, 話買外賣喎..... Tammy望望我之後話唔要, 我就叫全世界lunch break啦, 正所謂吊頸都要抖氣! 不過我就真係冇乜胃口, 或者冇得同M小姐食lunch啩.....
講完個電話, 見冇人喺出面, 起身行個圈, 當做運動..... 行到Tammy個位, 比我見到樣嘢! 立即打咗個突!
係一個手袋, 一個同M小姐E家用緊嘅同一個款! 唔係嘛? 上次就鏈咀, 今次就手袋, 點會咁啱? 我越諗就越心寒, 唔通我一直懷疑嘅, 可能係真? 但係又冇乜理由喎, 如果M小姐同Tammy真係一早識, 咁耐以嚟, 點都有D溝通啩, 佢哋冇可能扮到咁陌生! 除非, 兩個可能, M小姐收賣咗Tammy, 喺我身邊做25, 報料兼試探我嘅舉動!
又或者.....
佢哋根本就係一對!
我咁嘅諗法, 聽落好瘋狂, 但我唔係亂想..... 打從開始嘅一刻, 我已經係好奇怪M小姐果種失驚無神嘅反應, 而佢一直都冇提起以前嘅感情生活, 就算佢講咗好多有關爹哋媽咪嘅嘢比我知, 甚至乎成個家族, M小姐從來冇提過拍拖或者佢嘅ex! 即使佢係一個好自我保護嘅中女, 又或者有一段唔開心嘅過去, 反應亦都唔須要咁誇張! 除非...... 除非佢同我一樣, 有D不可告人嘅秘密!
越熟悉Tammy, 就越覺得佢故怪! 由一個TB短髮妹, 變做一個sexy嘅黃君磬, 由敵視嘅態度, 變番正常嘅態度..... 加上佢果次no pay leave事件, 內情非常之撲朔迷離, 我雖然唔敢亦冇興趣去探討背後發生咗乜, 但係E個人應該唔簡單!
如果係第一個推算, M小姐只不過擺支針喺我身邊, 咁就容易應付咯! 起碼知己知彼, 只要我做番本份, 叫少D雞, 搵少D西安C9, 佢哋應該做唔到我嘅! 反正大家係度做戲, 而且, 遲早佢哋嘅身份都要穿煲, 咪同您哋玩落去囉.....
但係..... 如果佢哋真係一對, 咁就好撚仆街!
我開始隱約見到一幅puzzle.....
15:00
我叫晒所有人入我間房開個quick meeting, 事關有個新revise, 仲要meet個新deadline! 就係剛剛開始嘅時候, M小姐行咗過嚟! 我打手勢叫佢開門.....
"你忙完先, by the way, 我send咗個message比你!"
M小姐講完, 轉身就走! 我冇理, 繼續開會..... 但係我留意到Tammy嘅反應! 當所有人望住M小姐開門講嘢嘅時候, 只有Tammy繼續做嘢睇文件, 完全冇理會過M小姐! 其實, 越刻意就越令我懷疑, 正所謂無私顯見私!